prettynativeamericangirl

im cryssa, not normal
far from it...
my life has been from being a drug baby to my mom putting beer in my bottle to make me pass out...
to being in and out of drug rehabs with my mom..
too her dieing from a drug o.d.
to moving in with my father that was high off meth everyday. to finally now... in high school trapped feeling that everyone knows my life story, feeling judged and made fun of...
my dad is now in a mental hospital because he went insane...
i feel because my family is the way it is that they all want me the same..
i try to be strong and keep my chin up when all i do is sit in my room and write poetry and dream of a better life..
at school i look at the girls with everything.. the money the perfect boyfriend... everything they want .. most important a FAMILY... which i would die for anyday.


i love to laugh and smile but my whole life ive done the opposite of that. im waiting to get out of highschool and move on to my life and become who i want to be. not this depressed girl that everyone sees as weird, out of place, a nobody. i am somebody but i havent shown her to the world yet.